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YNWA

The sun went down and the crowd went home
I was left by the roadside all alone
I turned to speak as they went by
But this was the time of no reply.
The time of no reply is calling me to stay
There is no hello and no goodbye
To leave there is no way.
The trees on the hill had nothing to say
They would keep their dreams till another day
So they stood and thought and wondered why
For this was the time of no reply.
Time goes by from year to year
And no one asks why I am standing here

Don't know when I'll be back again...

I honestly don't know what to say anymore.

Last 150k hands:

http://www.pokerhand.org/?3955717 - Ai pf and me aren't friends, we haven't been for a very long time now.

http://www.pokerhand.org/?3955719 - Everybody wanna fuck this dude right here

http://www.pokerhand.org/?3955723 - I'm the BTN. I have a boat. Sink it please.

http://www.pokerhand.org/?3955750 - I seriously don't know what this guy was thinking on the turn. wtf.

http://www.pokerhand.org/?3955744 - Don't believe the hype, topset is never good.

http://www.pokerhand.org/?3955731 - I've been going at it with this guy, I actually think turn is more than fine.

http://www.pokerhand.org/?3955738 - River is prolly a fold, but I asked for it with my tiny bet, so it made it a bit more debatable.

http://www.pokerhand.org/?3955761 - Next.

http://www.pokerhand.org/?3955771 - This is v sick. HU. SNAPCALL. 43% is more than enough.

http://www.pokerhand.org/?3955783 - HU against v laggy villain. He ships it with style.

I'd give you everything I've got for a little peace of mind

Hi there new kids on the blog.

Since I got back from London nothing has really worked out well for me. I've made some poor decisions along the way, although I blame variance and BAD luck for the most part. It's been ups and downs ever since november 1st. That's 4 months of breaking even. I'm stuck a TON in february, especially the last part of the month has gone wrong, especially at 10/20. Along the way I've felt that I was going in the right direction, but it's always been 6 steps forward 8 steps back. When talking to other regulars, some of them don't recognize variance and swings enough. They think it won't happen to them, because they've played.. what, 150k hands at 5/10 and "surely had their fair share of swings"? That's nothing. Eventually.. A big fat motherfucker with a chainsaw is coming knocking on your door. Don't say I didn't warn you. GL with that. Sarcasm aside, this is the reality of playing poker professionally. It's inevitable.. like death and hangovers. Some players are able to cope with all this in a very healthy way, but I'm just not one of them. Talking about swings rationally isn't tough, but actually accepting and fully understand them is not.

I have to admit that I've been seriously considering a careerchange. I miss doing something creative, like making music as I used to. I wan't to develope something. I want a new challenge. Now it's all about getting money in the bank. Grinding out endless amount of hours in front of the screens just to get some loot. It's a cardcame, and to be honest it's not that funny. I haven't decided on what to do yet, but there's a good chance I'll continue being a slave to money for some time.

Here's my graph in BBs. It doesn't really show the whole picture, because I've run way worse at 5/10 and 10/20 than below. So just add some much bigger swings the past 150k hands and it should be fine:

I understand that alot of people aren't interesting in hearing me whining about things not going my way. But I don't care, this is my refuge. This is a place where I get to let out steam and write down thoughts. So in this post I mainly post hands that I loose, that's my way of getting them out of the system. If you ever wonder how it feels like to get run over by a bulldozer when you are lying naked and kids are pointing and laughing at you, just go through these hand histories (There's a good chance that you'll stand next to the kids and start laughing aswell). Or if you think I'm a selfcentered prick who whines way too much please press ALT + F4.

http://www.pokerhand.org/?3923721 - Hand of the century ladies and gentlemen!

http://www.pokerhand.org/?3923792 - I don't think he could've played this hand worse on any street.

http://www.pokerhand.org/?3923690 - AA on 10/20 with nut flush draw

http://www.pokerhand.org/?3923703 - Nuts on turn and two villains drools all over the place

http://www.pokerhand.org/?3923686 - AA in BB against BTN

http://www.pokerhand.org/?3923707 - Please hold, hold.. ah fuck you random card generator

http://www.pokerhand.org/?3923708 - QQ. Queens some call them. I like to refer to them as bitches. Or perhaps even sluts.

http://www.pokerhand.org/?3923805 - AQ vs T9 on A high flops are never good. Just fold.

http://www.pokerhand.org/?3923716 - Here I stack a guy who likes taking it up the ass.

http://www.pokerhand.org/?3923722 - Pokerhand.org sometimes screws up the positions, but it's sb vs bb. folding river is prolly right, but that's just meh.

http://www.pokerhand.org/?3923732 - AKh.. turns makes me so excited, but for no reason.

http://www.pokerhand.org/?3923696 - AA against CO opener who likes to 4bet shove

http://www.pokerhand.org/?3923737 - Here I call down my squeezinghappy irl buddy in a pretty sick hand.

http://www.pokerhand.org/?3923744 - Induce, shove.. ah nice, oh wait. lol wtf. haha fail.

http://www.pokerhand.org/?3923748 - I think this is pretty std, guy is a squeezingmachine.

http://www.pokerhand.org/?3923699 - Here I actually stack two goofy opponents at the same time

http://www.pokerhand.org/?3923757 - On turn he's either bluffing or has me beat? It's pretty marginal.

http://www.pokerhand.org/?3923761 - Here it turned out I was value checksnuffin myself

http://www.pokerhand.org/?3923787 - I'm very excited about this flop.

http://www.pokerhand.org/?3923682 - AA 125bbs eff

http://www.pokerhand.org/?3923794 - Autoshove

http://www.pokerhand.org/?3923800 - ollolloolllol!!!111oneone!!11ellevenelleven

http://www.pokerhand.org/?3923802 - Oh wow

http://www.pokerhand.org/?3923803 - Splendid turn

Soundtrack of Today: Beatles - I'm So Tired

Little darling, I feel that ice is slowly melting

So I'm back from London, wanted to do a post earlier, but here it is.

London was just as amazing as I remember it, and I really enjoyed having some time off. No floats, no checkraises, no 3-barrels, just vacation. The weather was actually really good with a clear blue sky, although pretty cold. Just walking around the streets of the inner city was a joy. We visited all sorts of touristy places, and also went to two of Gordon Ramsay's restaurants. The Italian restaurant Murano and the fusion frenzy place called Maze. Murano was a small and very intimate place with excellent italian food. While Maze was more trendy with young trendylooking dudes all over the place - it was huge and almost styled like a nightclub, and had a big bar in the center. A bit too snobbish for my liking, mehh. We had a tasting menu with 7 dishes, with all sorts of weird food combinations. The food was great, and it was pretty fun to try all the dishes, but to be honest I prefer the more quiet and relaxing Murano. Food > all.

Being in London we had to go see a premier league match, so we got some insanely overpriced tickets for the Arsenal - West Ham game. THAT was an amazing experience, and the fans was out of this world great singers. Unfortunately the game ended 0-0, but i'd do it all over again, and I can't wait to get back and see some more games in the future.

I took some pictures along the trip:

Squirrllzzl in Green park.

At Piccadilly Circus a filmcrew was in the middle of recording the new Sherlock Holmes movie.

Some clown in Covernt Garden made the audience laugh.

Christiano gets a ticket.

Me freezing like a motherfucker at the Arsenal game.

Emirates Stadium

Picking up some grub.

Chinese New Year at Trafalgar Square

We wanted to try a real english breakfast, so we went to a place where all the local roadworkers went. Care for a bite?

I caught this beautiful yankee on camera.

I played around 10k hands since I got back home, and I can't really seem to shake that brutal variance off my back - But I feel confident nonetheless, my game is getting better day by day, and I think I've spotted some minor leaks I've had the past months. Now I just have to focus and keep putting in more hours, and not slack along the way. I've therefore decided to grind a great amount for the rest of february.

Footnotes: I'm starting to get fat, need more exercise. I will post some hands in a couple days. Untill next time..

Soundtrack of Today: George Harrison - Here Comes The Sun

London calling to the faraway towns

Haven't played as much as I wanted to the past days, but I've had other stuff to do (oh yes I did). The games have been amazingly good lately, but I haven't been able to get some cream, in fact I'm stuck for the month so far. The soft ones keep emptying my pockets, but as I've said many times before, I will strike down upon thee with great vengeance and furious anger those who would attempt to poison and destroy my game. And you will know my name is jegerrrr when I lay my vengeance upon thee.

I'm going to London on wednesday for a week or so with my girlfriend, which I'm looking forward to. Although the weather is the same depressing story as here, I'm sure I'll find London very relaxing after all. I've been there several times before, last time I was there for the Jay-Z concert at Wembley which was out of this world. I haven't found a hotel yet, so if anyone got any recommendations, please let me know, as well as good restaurants or whatnot. I really, really want to go to one of Gordon Ramsay's restaurants while I'm there. Food > all.

This week something good happened to me; I finally pulled my shit together and started working out at a gym. I feel like I've been in a fight with The Governator right now. I'm pretty excited about this, and hope I'll be able to keep up my motivation. (I find that really hard sometimes). Working out has all sorts of benefits, and there are hardly any things on the downside worth mentioning. Hopefully I'll sleep much better, get a lot more energy, and be pumped up on dopamine. Aaah.

I will post some hands soon, probably at the end of the month, along with a graph of me doing slalom down the mountain. I hope you'll enjoy today's soundtrack, I've spent hours listening to this song very loud.

Soundtrack of today: The Clash - London Calling

Weird scenes inside the gold mine

Today was very bad.

Soundtrack of the year: The Doors - The End